When did music become a cock show?

When did music become a cock show?
I went to an open mic that I'm very familiar with in Glendale today. I know it's usually a sausage party there, in other words it's mostly men. But there was a nice group of young women at a table who did a fabulous job jammin' out with jembe and  guitar. What am I getting at?

 Well the first musician that ever existed was in 3500 B.C.E., her name was Enheduanna. She was a priestess. Her purpose was to open the heart of man and channel the divine wholeness of the creator. Music was ritualistically engrained with poetry and passion- A passion to relate to the spiritual health and love of community. Music was a tool of deep expression and relating- a way to move people's spirits.
When did it become an ego contest?

What did I witness at the open mic? I witnessed a handful of men comparing notes and fraternizing about how fast and how good they play notes. It sounded a lot of technical business to me, and it was stripped of spirit. They all praised each other but not one of the men went up to the women… myself included.

When did music become such a cock contest? When they were playing all this Merry Christmas lighthearted stuff, and the girls wanted me to play again… I warned the guys that my stuff is highly emotional. A couple of men snickered and they said "oh no, not that." Well, sorry to hit you in the head with this one… But an emotion is worth 1000 thoughts, and if I could move you with emotion then maybe your spirit will feel something. Did they feel something and still not offer collaboration. I put my heart and soul into that music, and it was glorious and I felt it's glory… But I'm not sure that they did. What a bummer, maybe if I played like Invar Mansteen and opened my legs wide bouncing up-and-down like I was gyrating an object… Maybe they would feel something… Maybe the closest that they could feel something is in their sexuality, and that's why they have cock contests.

There was one man who came up to me and asked for collaboration, but it seemed pretty superficial. He stopped mid conversation with me to fraternize with an old trumpet player. The trumpet player didn't give me much love at all, but the fact that he was playing so many notes and flopping his ego around like an unbridled cock, had everybody believe that he was good. But does ego equate with goodness? I left without giving my information to the guy who wanted it… Does he really deserve it anyway? I'm learning to find people who appreciate what I do and are on my level, the spirit level. There are so few who get it, but I'm playing for them. They are the gems in the rough.

If you're reading this, and you get what I'm saying, I'm sending you love. If you're reading this, and judging the situation against me, realize that you're probably part of the problem in the way people think. Live in spirit, the ego is just a shell and it's no fun anyway.

"You living in your ego is like living as a pig in your own filth. When you are immersed in the soul, it's like swimming in a comfy blanket. Though the guys were technically good, they had no soul. Jaclyn when you sing it's like you're bearing your big soul and letting it all pour out." - Alex Cortes

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"As sCaRed, as sillY, as joyous, as shameless, as VIBRANT, as DARK, as YOU can BE! Let it pour through you RESPECTFULLY, in the name of PEACE. We uphold TRUTH! To life a life as COLORFUL as you!" - Jaclyn Shaw ("Live Your Art" Movement)

Are you LiSteNinG??  Jaclyn Shaw's Music

Greatness is Proportional to Emotion

I realized after coming here (to LA), in pursuit of my musical career that there were a couple of blocks around my heart and my head. I wasn't sure why, as I was doing all the work necessary to increase my range and to become a better singer. What I didn't realize until I conversed with my two new musical roommates and musical landlord, was that I was thinking too much about the logistics of it all. What I need to activate, in order to transcend any blocks, is my deep emotion. The work is found in identifying, processing, and letting go of the emotion of a song. One emotion, after all, is worth a thousand thoughts. People who work on and through emotions, are able to work at a higher level than they would if they were just processing linear logistical streams. 

The irony of my dilemma is this: I used to be a psychologist before I decided to go down the artistic path. Although I was doing counseling work to create a safe place for other people to let go of and express their emotions, I had to maintain a strict objective stance. Now I need to tackle this professional habit in order to grow as a performer/artist. The work I must do is found in rhythm, sincerity, and most of all diligence even when the emotion feels that it is at a standstill.

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"As sCaRed, as sillY, as joyous, as shameless, as VIBRANT, as DARK, as YOU can BE! Let it pour through you RESPECTFULLY, in the name of PEACE. We uphold TRUTH! To life a life as COLORFUL as you!" - Jaclyn Shaw ("Live Your Art" Movement)

Are you LiSteNinG??  Jaclyn Shaw's Music

In many cases war and rape go hand and hand. Killing creation is equivalent to de-sanctifying the womb of the earth and the natural flow of life. If this darkness is such a weak force, why are people so threatened by it? The weak force only comes from weak minded individuals who must rob and pilfer in order to feel sustained.


The weak force is vampiric! Vampires believe they are righteous, justifying their behavior with their thirst. They glorify a history written by victors, unconscious of a legacy of vampiric addiction. In reality, the weak force beings are insufficient.  They must be if they need to coerce and hurt others in order to serve themselves. If they were truly powerful, they would be autonomous... but their need to usurp is defined by their weakness.

There are vast religions and governments that pay homage to the murder/rape of nature's beings. I reject religions that show any trace of this. I think the leaders of such causes are mental vamps. Even governments that promise to protect life parasitically bind themselves to the blood, sweat and tears of a working class' brow... in order to rise. They may attempt to control/limit vast possibilities, morph and mutate transcendental sacred archetypes found in the universe, and dumb the phenomenal expression of life down. When vampires twist the giving nature of life in order to exploit and drain Her before good time. Coercions and control of the masses by vampiric forces traumatize nature for that reason. Life is taken before it is ready to be taken. The weak force has not triumphed, it has only delayed life's beautiful manifestations.

Perhaps people are threatened by a weak force's ability to drain and they may feel nothing is really protecting them. The law of their religions may convince them to nurture the weak force, and so they are focused more on the weak force than they are on the beauty and mystery of life.

Honoring the womb of the earth and keeping creation sacred... lies in the protection of nature, upholding one's self against the predominant chaotic destructive forces, and honoring the nature in you, that made you. Life has one mysterious direction... most times She just wants to give and when She decides in her infinite wisdom, She will take. Only people who respect life can understand her signs and her lessons. If people don't respect her, they end up trying to control everything themselves (and we know what that leads to... weak energy flow)

So my message to all of you, and especially to myself... is this: don't let the bastards get you down! You are life manifest. You are a miracle. You don't have to submit to the weak force to prove you are better or righteous. Knowing your being is more powerful than any being who wants to take it, is the first step. They want you for a reason. You are precious. Guard your life with a strong positive field of life- conscious and life-filled beings.  Protect your life at all costs, and by no means succumb to the ways of energy vampires. They may want to take you down on ground level to grapple with a cause you don't need to struggle with. It's not your fight. Let the vampires fight with themselves until they surrender to life again. It's not you're battle so don't fight it.

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"As sCaRed, as sillY, as joyous, as shameless, as VIBRANT, as DARK, as YOU can BE! Let it pour through you RESPECTFULLY, in the name of PEACE. We uphold TRUTH! To life a life as COLORFUL as you!" - Jaclyn Shaw ("Live Your Art" Movement)

Are you LiSteNinG??  Jaclyn Shaw's Music