Week Of Solace and Snow

As I sit in the stillness, being tempted to move… knowing full well that I must ...It seems like the beginning of the sentence, but this is where I've been all week. I have been at the beginning. I have been plotting the web of songs as my emotions gather and fester inside me. It has been a rough couple of weeks, as I was in a brief whirlwind of a relationship… That left me craving honesty. 
Honesty with myself is about all of what I relish at this moment. Although I am not a pop singing sensation (nor do I think I want to be…), I do feel that this blogging regimen is helping me to grow. It is keeping me busy with my soul. If we are indeed in a realm of opposites, this moment makes most sense. It seems that from a place of extreme apathy and numbness, can come such abundant enthusiasm and fulfillment. Extreme opposites meet in song, for some reason. Song is my path… And with this path I present what I just created a couple of minutes ago. Pushing myself to express, with much resistance and lost hope.       


Here is a sound file of what I made today (TOTALLY ROUGH): 

So Cry a Teardrop in My Name

You sat in the middle of a venue I used to play
Longing for both me and a reason to break
Searching for a smooth skin to wrap yourself in
You know you wore mine thin

So cry a teardrop in my name
So lie with this girl; It's all the same
Cry me a tear, cry me a lake
Swim to your limits, swim till you sink

Will I sink to the bottom
While you kick me away
Become ash in your clouds
As you ignite a new flame
Passing your torch to all the women you claimed
Their sorrow collects on your face

So cry a teardrop in my name
So lie with this girl; It's all the same
Cry me a tear, cry me a lake
Swim to your limits, swim till you ache

Blame me for my closed doors
Wallow in your drinks
Kiss her and dismiss her
While you hurt me once again

So cry a teardrop in my name
So lie with this girl; It's all the same
Cry me a tear, cry me a lake
Swim to your limits, swim till you break

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"As sCaRed, as sillY, as joyous, as shameless, as VIBRANT, as DARK, as YOU can BE! Let it pour through you RESPECTFULLY, in the name of PEACE. We uphold TRUTH! To life a life as COLORFUL as you!" - Jaclyn Shaw ("Live Your Art" Movement)

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Finding Resolution

This New Years, I proclaim to be dedicated to my sound. I met an artist recently, who has inspired me to pursue my expression a bit more adamantly and most importantly, to share my progress...

I am recording a live acoustic jam weekly as a vow to my expression.  Sharing my progress is a humble act. It is not meant to be listened to as a professional recording, but to be shared so that listeners can hear where I am at (emotionally, musically).

Since I have been focused on simplifying my complex reality, I wrote a song 20 minutes ago that with 3 chords to it. I strummed it clumsily, and sang it out. I made the words up as I went.

Here it is  :)

He's a bold light
A fighter with a suitcase
He's got electric eyes
And a puzzle in his mind
And if he finds the pieces
Line so perfectly to me
Will he place me in a dream
I ought to be in

It's been a while and a half
And it feels like a minute
Would he hold me back
If I let him win it
I think his smile is stupid
But I'd still like to see it

And if I yell too loud, will you keep on coming back to me
And if I break loose, will you pave the path to set me free
And if I lie next to you, will you break me in two?

He's a fine line, I'd like to cross it
When he gives me a mile
I'd take it and get lost in it
Toss my fingers to my boss
And punch my heart like keys
He wants to keep me silly

And if I yell too loud, will you keep on coming back to me
And if I break loose, will you pave the path to set me free
And if I lie next to you, would you dream for two?
Would you dream too?

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"As sCaRed, as sillY, as joyous, as shameless, as VIBRANT, as DARK, as YOU can BE! Let it pour through you RESPECTFULLY, in the name of PEACE. We uphold TRUTH! To life a life as COLORFUL as you!" - Jaclyn Shaw ("Live Your Art" Movement)

Are you LiSteNinG??  Jaclyn Shaw's Music